PLKN aka National Service aka Not So Bad Lah

So I'm back from National Service. Was there only like what, 6 days? LOL Failed the health check beb. Had asthma all my life ok so I did not make shit up. So in the short time I was there, I made some really great friends and met some really great people. In my opinion, the actual camp, PLKN, taught me nothing. But it IS DEFINITELY worth going.

Simply because, in meeting new people there, I came to realise what a huge bubble I've been living in my whole life. All my life as a student [excluding kindergarten] I've been in Convent. I've been living comfortably with the same group of people my whole life; such that when I was thrust into an environment where I was ALONE with NO ONE that I know personally, I was lost. Its a terrible thing yknow. I realised how bad I am at making friends and to be honest the first day I was there, I was pretty much all alone. Later on I made friends and was pleasantly surprised at how much I had in common with them and how much we could talk even if we barely knew each other. I'm not saying that its time to change all my friends, what I'm saying is it's time to grow up. And that is what I learnt from my experience at PLKN.

If you get National Service, and have nothing better to do, then go. I had fun there. And I honestly believe that had I stayed there longer, I would have enjoyed it more. BUT I AM VERY HAPPY TO BE BACK HOME. Because I fucking HATE marching. And practically ALL we do there is march. It's fucking idiocy at its highest. And because the food there sucked balls. Heads up Ministry of Health, YOUR MENU FOR PLKN SUCKS.


Well that's about it. I really miss my PLKN friends. Sonia, Predy, all my roommates, Taiyeba and gang. Aih I rlly miss em. So yeah, PLKN was not as bad as I expected. I went there with an open mind, came back with many more friends and happy memories. Even if it was only 6 days worth.

That's all for now! Gonna get my driving license and hopefully a job!
Bye!

PLKN aka National Service aka Kill Me Now

Okay I'm leaving for National Service in under 24 hours. Can't believe I'm actually doing this. Oh God, I must be crazy. I'm rlly worried no one will wanna be my friend. Because I suck at making friends and I suck and being friendly to people I don't know. Fear of rejection. I brought books to read in case nobody wants to talk to me. Can't bring my phone so I can't text or call my friends. I will be cut off from the internet world the whole time I'm there. I'm really scared.

I don't want to live in the forest or walk through the forest or camp out there. I don't want to go marching because it truly is the dumbest, most pointless activity in the world. I don't want to eat 6 meals a day. I don't want to bathe in a creepy outhouse. I don't want to shit or pee in a creepy outhouse. I don't want to be terrified to find myself awake in the middle of the night there because of all the horror stories I've heard about those camps. I don't want to wash my own clothes and hang em up to dry for everyone to see. I don't want to have to deal with other human beings cuz I suck at that. I don't want to perform any "cultural performances". I don't want to have to introduce myself to a group of strangers and have them all stare at me while I fumble with my words. I don't want to polish my boots. I don't want to wear those Goddamned ugly ass boots and uniform. I don't want to do any outdoor activities like hiking or teamwork-activities. I don't want to deal with over-bearing leader-type characters. I don't even want to deal with over-excited camp facilitators.

Every camp I have ever been to, church organized or otherwise, I have not enjoyed. I think I've been to over 10 camps in my life, I've only truly enjoyed one. O-N-E. To be honest, I love staying at home, alone, and doing what I like to do. I don't like sitting down with a bunch of strangers thinking of a team name, a team cheer, a team flag, a performance idea. It's all stupid and pointless to me.

But I realize that this isn't the right attitude to bring to a camp that will last me 3 FRIKKIN MONTHS. I simply have to suck it up, stop whining and do what I can to enjoy myself there. Can you imagine being miserable for THREE WHOLE MONTHS. And if I'm miserable, even more people would be put off by me and my negativity. Even I can't stand negative people who grumble all the time. I've been grumbling long enough. Tomorrow onwards, I will go for National Service with an open mind and an open heart. I will try my best to be friendly to everyone and try my very very very best to not roll my eyes at all the excited people there. I needa adopt their attitudes. I really do hope to gain a lot from this experience. I mean to go there for 3 whole months and come back with nothing? THEN IT WOULD TRULY BE A WASTE OF TIME. If I don't learn anything from the camp, AT THE VERY VERY LEAST, I hope to make some friends. I really want to learn to make a good first impression. Because all my life people have disliked me till they got to know me because of my erm lack of response when approached. The truth is I get really nervous when a stranger approaches me. Not like I'm in danger or wtv, but I feel like I won't say the right thing. Or the person will think I'm weird. So I just go into o.o mode and say the dumbest things and seem rude even when I didn't mean to. I suck horribly at small talk.

I digress. The point is, I am leaving for National Service and I'll most prolly be there till March the 17th. Its a really long time to be away from the things I love most, i.e: family, friends and internet. I hope everything goes great. I hope I come back happy. Because if I don't, it would have been the biggest waste. I'm starting college NEXT YEAR because I'm going for NS. So yeah, its a pretty big sacrifice. My dad wants me to go, btw, if you're wondering why I'm even going. He says I need discipline. Anyw, those of you starting school and college, good luck and have fun! To those of you going for National Service like me, GOOD FRIKKIN LUCK. WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER. LETS JUST PARTY ROCK THE NEXT 3 MONTHS.

A very exhausting post.

I would love to finally fill those of you who care[lol *crickets*] in about everything that's been going on in my life since the 5th of December aka Independence Day, but I'm afraid that would be an incredibly depressing topic. Basically I've been through all kindsa shit since then. Fighting left right and center, anger and disappointment everywhere. Learning not to be so idealistic about relationships[the love kind and friendship kind alike], and forgiveness. People shouldn't have to fight to make someone forgive them right? I mean, once that battle is fought and lost? One should just move on and find happiness somewhere else right? Even if its the saddest thing in the world to me now. I guess. I think. I don't know.

Anyw, depression wasn't the only thing that I experienced since the end of my exams, I did have a chance to spend time with the people I love most. Family and friends and someone else~~ LOLJK THAT SOMEONE ELSE IS GOD

Here are some pictures! :)

Went to Universal Studios Singapore and met my Prince Charming there, literally. ♥.♥

Hehehhhh. Went to Vietnam with the loved ones! :)


Love this girl to infinity and beyond ♥!

Another cute lil loved one! She's only 11 ok. Must pretend to be innocent next to her heh



Party Rock was in the hotel that night cuz my cousin and I got a room to ourselves \m/

Vietnamese girls all thin and pretty w good complexion ok don't playplay

Touring Vietnam!

We had no clue what the fuck this was but lol other tourists were taking pictures with it so heck, it was prolly summin important.

The streets of Vietnam were awesome. Life hazard for the pedestrians and drivers alike, but still, pretty awesome. The people are friendly! :)

On the streets of Vietnam! I like this picture because it looks like I have dimples. Hehhh

We went on a tour of the Mekong River! It was the funnest day there. Forget shopping man, this was heaps more fun.

This is................. LIONEL RITCHIE!!!! AHHAHAHAHAHAH Our tour guide! He introduced himself to us as Lionel Ritchie ok I did not make this shit up. He was absolutely adorable. So funny! He sang for us and every time we had to leave a tour site, he'd call us to the bus by shouting HELLO!!! IS IT ME YOU'RE LOOKING FOR!!!!! HAHAHAHAHHA

Rode these boat-type-thingys down the Mekong River~

♥

Contemplating the meaning of life~

Snake and scorpion wine. D:

Didn't feel any stronger after the shot, to be honest...........
LOLJKTHATSJUSTHONEYTEA

Then we went on a tiny lil rowing boat down through a branch of the Mekong River that went through the villages there.

This was actually the home of the gentlemen who was rowing[?] our lil boat.

Random woman obviously livin' da lyf~

This is one of my fav shots of the trip. LOL mom forever the scaredycat. Ok so my mom has a huge fear of water[and everything else on earth] and cant swim[can't ride a bike either]. She was so scared to get into this rickety tiny boat! She was insisting on lifejackets and all. HAHAHAHAHA She was obviously holding on for dear life while I sat there ngaf. LOL

She was okay after a while tho. Proud of you, Momma!

At the village!

Taken before leaving Vietnam, during dinner. Aunt's on the right. Too much sisterly cuteness lol

And then, KL with the girls♥ Third anniversary ok! We've been going to KL together every year since '09! Annual end of year KL trips are the best. :)

Gonna miss this lil bunny when she goes off for college in KL this January. :'(

This mental case will forever be around lah HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA ♥

This mental case also ahahhahahaha. She'll be slacking off w me while the others go to college. Anti college forever lol.

♥

Oh yeah this happened in Vietnam too.

Before:

And after: Whaddaya think? I was lied to when they said,
"Choose a bright colour because when you dye dark hair the colour always comes out darker! :)"
Those bastards. loljk I like it actually. Hated it at first but I like now. :D

Annnnnnnnd then we tried to plan a Prom for us 94's to party rock after spm but it failed and didn't happen because [SOME] JB people are lame and would rather "go home and sleep" than party -.- Who would've thought man. I mean, I knew JB people not as steady as KL people when it comes to parties lah but this is omg rlly damn lame I tell you. Cmi at all. -.- -.- -.-


Ok thats about it. I'm so tired now. Took hours to arrange the pics and caption em. LOL WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER PLS DON'T ASK ME I HAVE NO IDEA. Nothing much better to do anyw. Well, bye!